The Cause, Queer As Folk Fanfiction
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The Cause
SummaryThefirsttimeJustindoesithe’ssurprisedbythepain
For: viola69 because I promised her SmAngst.
SEASON FOUR SPOILER WARNING. I am serious about this. I am basically taking what we know and
warping it to suit my fic. So if you don't want to know ANYTHING about season four, don't read this. That
said, this is definitely not how things are going to pan out, it's just my wishful thinking.
The Cause
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ThefirsttimeJustindoesithe’ssurprisedbythepainHedoesn’tthinkhe’sphysicallyhurtsomeone
thatoldlockeroompunchwithChrisHobbsHesitsonastoolthat’smissingoneleginCody’stiny, beat-
up apartment, staring at his pale hand where bruises are already forming.
“Youokay?”CodysaysandJustinnodsbecauseheisandthat’swhat’samazinghimHethoughthis
hands were good at stroking and jerking off and wielding a paint brush, butthat’saboutitHenever
considered the power he could have.
“Doesitalwayshurt?”heasksandwantstolaughathisinadvertentreferencebutCodywouldn’tget
the joke.
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When Justin comes back to the loft, he finds Brian stoned for the fourth time that week. Another bust of
ajobinterviewBrian’salittletooroughwithhimflippinghimonallfoursonthefloorfuckingJustin
withoutcareorevenhisconsentWhenhecomeshegrabsontoJustin’shandsandsqueezestheshit
out of them, crushing his slender, bruised fingers in his mindless pleasure. Justin cries out and comes,
the pain a strange and beautiful release.
InthemorningBriandoesn’tappeartoreadthepaperorifhedoeshedoesn’tconnecttheattackona
white businessmanwithJustinwhocan’tholdapencilfortwodays
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One night he comes back early from hunting with Cody, pumped on the adrenaline high. He sucks Brian
off fast and hard on the floor (where else do they fuck these days?) and convinces him to come to the
grocery store.
sBrian’sexaminingthefatcontentonyogurtJustintriestobroachthetopic“Youknowtodayatthe
busstopsomeonecalledmeafag”heliesandhe’snotsurewhyHeneedssomethingoutofBrian
possibly. Approval? A reaction?
Brianjustcontinuesreadingthelabels“Forgetaboutit”hemurmursabsently“Don’tletitthrowyou”
Justinwondershowmanytimeshe’sheardthatbefore“Right”hesays“I’lldothatThanks”Heheads
into the frozen food section and Brian does not follow.
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ThefirsttimetheyevermetinthedineronelateshiftCodyrecognizedhimandwouldn’t stop talking.
Justin was initially surprised. No one had ever talked to him so openly about his bashing, ever.
“Solikethenightyougothitwhatdoyouremember?”hesaid“Howlongwereyouinthehospital
for?Whatwasitlike?”
“Itwaslikegettinghitintheheadwithabaseballbat”Justinsaiddumblysuddenlyfeelingverysmall
“Jesus”Codysaidshakinghisheadincontempt“ndyouweretotallyfineafterwards?”
“Wellmyhandwasfuckedupforawhile”
Codyraisedaneyebrow“That’snotwhatImeant”
Justinlookeddownathisrighthandflexedit“IknowIjustdon’twanttotalkaboutit”
“Yeahright”Codysnorted“Youshouldbetalkingaboutitforfuck’ssake!Youwerehitinthehead
andnearlydiedbecauseyou’re gayandyoudon’twanttotalkaboutit?Jesus!”
Justin thought serving him his burger was slightly anti-climatic after that, so he sat down in the booth
across from him. Justin talked, and Cody listened.
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Cody finds more guys to rope into their little group. Activists, friends and lovers of victims of hate
crimesWhenJustinsitsinCody’sapartmentwiththemlistenstotheirdiscussionstheirimpassioned
argumentshefeelslikemaybetheycanchangetheworldIt’sthebesthighhe’severexperienced, and
Brian would laugh at that – social activism, more potent than E – but nothing about E is as satisfactory as
slammingyourfistintosomeone’sfaceandpretendingChrisHobbsisthereinstead
Ofcoursesocialactivismisn’ttheironlydrugAfter one of their meetings everyone else goes home and
Cody and Justin lie on the bed, sharing a joint.
“Brian’sshitissomuchbetterthanthis”Justincomplainsbutthecheapweedhashimgigglinganyway
“Ithoughthelosthisjobhowcanheaffordpot”Codyscoffs
Justinsighsandcontemplatestheceiling“Idon’tknowwhatthefuckhe’sgoingtodoHehasno
plans”
CodyturnsonhissidetofaceJustinsmiling“YoudothoughThat’swhatcounts. Quit following him all
thetime”
“Hewouldn’tknowwhattodowithoutme”Justinlaughsasheexhalesapuffofsmoke
Codygesturestothesmallgrowingpileofnewspaperclippingsinthecorneroftheroom“Ithink
you’redoingfinewithouthim”
“IloveBrian”JustinfrownspossiblythezillionthtimehehassaidittoCodybutCodyneverlistensHe
just rolls his eyes and hauls Justin out of bed.
“Where’rewegoing?”JustinlaughstrippingoverhisfeetslightlyCodysitshimdownin the kitchen,
takes out scissors and a razor.
“IwasthinkingmaybeanewlookForus”Codysays
Justin considers the razor, the hair that is falling in his eyes, the hair that Brian runs his hands through
everytimehefuckshim“Yeah”hesays his voice catching. He clears his throat and nods, firmly.
“Yeah”
CodyshavesJustin’sheadandthenJustinshavesCody’sTheylaughastheysweepupthehairtogether
giddy with success, thinking of the future. Justin runs back to the loft still a bit high, bursts through the
door. Brian is a dark shadow lying on the bed. Laughing a little, Justin hops up the stairs, peeling off his
clothes. He forgets about his new hair until he sees Brian, and his eyes widen.
“Whatdoyouthink?”Justinattempts his heart rate suddenly picking up.
Brianstaresathimforamoment“Whythefuckdidyoudothat?”
“Ineededanewlook”Justinshrugsandrunshishandoverhishead
Brian just keeps looking at him, so Justin looks back, his chin raised, and after a long, silent moment in
thedarknessBrianfinallysays“Comehere”
Justin crawls into bed with him, naked, and grins slightly when Brian palms his head. He tests the texture
of the shorn hairs, fondling his head, stroking from his forehead to his neck and up again.
“Hmm”isallBriansaysandJustin’sgrinwidensHepushesBrianflatonhisbackcrawlsdownhisbody
leaving wet open-mouthed kisses over his skin; rubs his head into his stomach, the sensitive skin of his
innerthighsscratchinghimBrianhissesinabreathandcupsJustin’sheadbringinghismouthtohis
dickandJustinobedientlysuckshimoffBrianneverstopscaressingJustin’sscalp
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In theshowerthenextmorningBriankissesJustin’sexposedforeheadHeappearstobethinking
hesitatesthenfinallysays“Youhaven’tbeenaroundmuchlately”
JustinrunsthesoapoverBrian’schestchoosesananswer“Imadesomenewfriends”
“Oh?”
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